My birthday is coming up and there's a few ideas on how to celebrate. Some said BBQ, some said chalet. I suggested overseas but apparantly it was abandoned due to financial and other constraints.

But what I wanted was really simple. I don't even plan to celebrate. To me, birthday is nothing more than a day for you to indulge in whatever you like and. . . yea, what I really wanted was just to have a quiet birthday. Maybe a meal with some close friends, nothing too extravagant.

So many things I cannot say. So many thoughts I dare not write down. Always felt constantly hanging. I really have no idea. And with each passing moment, the feeling of the prediction seems to be coming true. and I fear for that. . . I really do.

Just went for a tcs with sx, qc and cw. Felt pretty wierd after. It seems like everyone had progressed while I've been staying stagnent. Everyone has a dream, but where is mine! Well, actually I had one, but i didnt thought about the techinical knowledge needed when I was young and I didn't like the technical knowledge needed when I was older.

p.s. I am missing you.

2,309,472 - I round down for you also 2,000,000

Lets say you live till 100! 100 - 20 = 80

80 years X 365 days = 29200 Days.

2,000,000 / 29,200 = roughly 68 bowls per day! You can finish I can treat!

I just realised, I have not eaten BCM for such a longgggg time. I have not played basketball for such a longgggg time, and I have not skate in ecp for such a longggggg time.

Anyways, theres an open house for SIM on the 14th of March, interested parties please lemme know! We can go together!

What's worst than a sudden disappearance is when things so dear to you fades into oblivion without you even noticing. And when you notice, you wonder why. Sweet memories makes you want it back. But it will never come back.

Why are women so troublesome? Not that I am a sexist or what. But even my mum is doing things that will drive me crazy. It goes like this.

Thursday Night

Mum: Ben ah! Tmr you send me to work la. Then you can use the car for the day. I don't need the car.

Me: Ok lo. Shouldn't be a prob

Mum: Then Dante 4pm dismiss from sch, you can go pick him also.

Me: Orh ok.

Friday Morning
Knowing that I need to send my mum to work. I slept at 3am and woke up at roughly 8 plus 9 cause she told me she needs to leave at 9 plus. Who knows, this was what happened when I went to the toilet at 9.

Mum: Ben ah, you didn't sleep ah?

Me: Got ah

*Me goes toilet"

Mum: Ben ah, I think nvm la. I can take mrt to work.

Me: Huh, I drive you la.

Mum: Dowan la, you didn't sleep, later too tired to drive.

Me: I got sleep ah.

Mum: Nvm la I can take mrt.

Me: Aiya then you drive there la, I also don't need a car for the whole day.

Mum: Huh, nvm la I take mrt also can.

By now, I was already pretty frustrated.

Me: Aiya, up to you la.

After saying this, I went to my room and continue using my com.

Then after a very short while, she ask me again.

Mum: You wan send me to work ah?

Me: Ya can ah.

And when she saw me using the com, she had to ask like 2-3 times if I am done and I had to reply her 3-4 times " Yes I am done, can go anytime."

And I have to emphasize, this is a very basic summary of the conversation. To be more exact, imagine her repeating all the questions another 2-3 times, and I literally mean, really do mean, seriously mean another 2-3 times for every single question. . . get my bold? Urgh!

Mahjong Mahjong and more Mahjong! So much so the moment I closed my eyes, I can see myself playing with 3 imaginery guest. Can't even sleep la! Most jialat is still because I lost like every single day. Hahaha

March! April! May! June! July! ORD! I can see the light alr!

Time. It never fails to amaze me.

Benny 22yo! 13/4/86