OH YA I FORGOT TO ADD, MR LIM WEE KIAN FAILED HIS DRIVING TEST FOR THE SECOND TIME. NOOBBB~~~ =XxxXXx

But dun hui xin, next time cfm can. Just that u got lousy tester nia. U noe robin? he failed 5 times i think. jia you!

Many times i have told myself. I dun understand her, i dunno wad she is thinking, neither do i know how she feels abt me. Perhaps i do, it's just that i refuse to face up to reality. The simple fact is, she just treats me as a good fren and nothing else. It's not gonna develope into something more. I should know this better than anyone else. Oh well, seems like i just got myself another wonderful fren.

Don't ask what happened, nothing happened. It just struck me that a dream should remain a dream and it's time to stop chasing it. i'm curious, what kinda guy could win her heart. I might envy the guy, but i hope it's not someone that disappoints me. Lol, saw a friend's msn nick. "A man falls in love with his eyes, a woman falls in love with her ears." I should seriously learn how to do more sweet-talking.

Suddenly, i just feel so free. No jobs, no commitment, no worries. Guess i should be glad that i am finally awake, though i did really took a long time. haha.

Ok, back to my life. I am now back to playing maplestory. . . YES I noe that it's a child's game and its boring and only no lifer plays it. But hey! its free! and it does occupy my time. Else i would have nothing to do this hols. Nope, dun ask me to work. I am sick and tired of being a waiter. Other jobs? i might consider, but its only might. I have only 1 more year before i go into NS. After that i can work as much as i want and i can get much more pay. Might as well enjoy now.

Another thing that i surprisingly look forward to, the starting of sch next week. So far i have not heard abt anyone other den me takin HRM. Kinda curious how my new class would be. *pray let there be babes =))) or at least someone i noe*

When it's time to move, move.
Time doesn't wait for anyone.

As i am typing this post, the tissue that i had *in* my left nostril is getting more and more red. Haha, cant be blamed, i had ice cream choc cake from my family, another choc cake on my bdae and many many f-amos cookies.

And so, there goes my bdae. I felt really happy though. At least my bdae wish was fulfilled(maybe i wished for something too simple). In fact i got much more than wad i had wished for. Anyways, i really appreciate wad u guys did for me. ahahah, and my lil bro spent his fortune to get me a bdae card that plays a Happy Bdae tune.

Hehe, also many many thanks to those who wished me happy bdae~~ i shld have replied everyone of u. Maybe missed out 1 or 2 =X . Thanks !

A lot of peeps are having quite a tough time recently. Hope having these celebrations can help cheer u guys up.

As for myself, i dunno whether i should be happy or not. Well, i did had an enjoyable bdae, but its more like something i will have in a dream and i am now back to reality. Secondly, my mum told me she went for some check up and she might develop cancer. No matter whether she is bullshiting or not, im still worried for her la.

Dreams,
I wish i nvr had.
For it will only give me hope,
and that is all i ever get.

wooo yea ~~~ i guess thursday was quite alright ba. The whole pub thingy wasn't really that bad. We had a whole underground big room to ourselves. haha. Quite a lot of ppl went too. Well, some things happened too, though i'm not quite sure of the details. But other than that, i guess the rest of the night was quite fine.

Well, it all seems fine, but i still felt disappointed. Its like suddenly i jus lose interest in everything. Bah, i'll recover in no time.

Sometimes, we should just learn the triple F process (taken from benny's big book of craps). That is, fuck it, forgive and forget. Life could better much better this way. BEWARE, its not easy though. But do give it a try.

I guess im quite an angry guy these few days. Dun worry, im not showing it. . . yet.

Well, why am i angry? I guess i jus dun like having music blasting and the lights on when i am trying to sleep, esp in the morning/afternoon. I need to sleep man, u cant jus pop up without telling/asking me. if im not answering calls or calling u back, it means im busy/sleeping and its not a good time to disturb me.

And i seriously dun like bullshit. How can u wait 20 min when i haven leave my house for more den 15 min? and if u wanna complain so much, u drive next time, lemme wait then.

ahh nvm. Guess i gonna make one cheesecake. Been ages since i had any. hurhur, should be buying some cheap red wine tmr too. I wanna try some new recipes i got~~

Ahh, what a fine Saturday afternoon. Haha. Going for a hair cut soon. I just dun understand, why is my hairstylist always keeping my hair so thick and long. But oh well, as long as she doesn't gives me the 50% botak hairstyle, I cant complain yea?

Hurhur, i read this somewhere and found it quite funny. Common Sense is actually pretty uncommon in this world. That explains why people do stupid things.

Anyways, this coming thusday, we would be having some celebration for those having bdae on April. The venue would be in a pub around outram. Pls feel free to come. If i have not invite you, im sorry ~ Dun worry abt who is going. As long as u feel fine with me, it's enough.

Pls dun make me lose control. ty

Benny 22yo! 13/4/86