Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

How my heart aches.
Where was i
When u were crying thru the night
im sorry

hi. I am back again. Oh well, in the end, i didn't really contact her. Its been days since we sms each other. . . but nvm. WE ARE ALL SAD PPL. wahahaha.

Ok, now qingnan is slping on my bed and i can't slp. And so, i am now blogging.

Haha, its been a long time since we went out as a group. Met at punggol nasi lemak for food before going to hougang plaza for pool. Talked a lil here and there. Though we all seems to have problems, mine is less complicated. But only mine doesn't have an ending yet. wahahahaha. I sometimes wonder, how things can change so drastically. Its like, you and your special someone was once in love, had a period of great time and was close to each other. Suddenly, you and him/her can dislike each other, perhaps even to the extend of hate.

Bah, nvm, I'm too tired to think anymore.

Anyways, i wanted to organise an outing for everyone. Its like just going to partyworld on a sat or sun, meet up with some old friends and have some fun. As usual, i always get lousy response. . . this person cannot, that person cannot, many many say see first, den all shui bian shui bian, in the end all complain/cannot. . . Ahh, fuck it.

Have you ever miss someone so much that, no matter what you are doing, you kept thinking of her. Every single message that you received, you pray that it is from her. Everytime your hp rings, you hope her name would appear.

I've forgotten the feeling of missing someone so much(if i ever felt so before). Its practically driving me crazy. . .

Alas, i did not receive any msg from her yesterday and i don't think i will get any today too. Its seriously feels like hell. . . ok, maybe hell was too exaggerating an expression, but its really kinda disappointing.

Why do i have to see that little hope? I am scared, very scared. I am afraid that i would fall down from heaven again.

Am i thinking too positively that got me that hope and bliss or too negatively to make me feel so bitter now? I dunno. I want the answer, i know i can get the answer with a little more courage. Somehow, i fear. Perhaps the answer might be positve if i wait longer? but how much longer. . . or even worst, what if its never.

I know that i can take it even if it doesn't turns out well for me. I would cry in my heart but life will still goes on. No one will know exactly how bad i feel cause i will still smile on the surface. Perhaps no one will even know cause i won't tell. But i don't want it to end this way!

oK! I am getting out of point. I only meant to blog about not receiving her msg and feeling like shit because of that. I really do miss her like crazy.

Wahaha, did something stupid again.

Its 2.30 am now. I am finally resting after 3 hours of driving, lol. actually i reached home at ard 130.but then i read the msg when i reach home. She feels like having cookies and cream ice cream. And so i went to punggol park's 7-11 and they do not sell any nice ice cream. After thinking for a while, i rmb rivervale plaza's 7-11 sells haagan daas. And so i rush down to buy the last medium tube of cookies and cream. And when i finally reached her hse, her hp was shut off. Guess shes aslp le.

Ahh i felt so stupid.

Benny 22yo! 13/4/86