ahhh, wad a sad day. lol, todays 4d number, 3rd price is 2486, i bought 2483. den another number is 4549, i bought 4579. guess thats why people always buy 4d. cuz it always seems so close to winning, lol.

hmm, what do u all have in mind when a group consist of 4 gers a guy? the guy is damn lucky? lol, not in my case. lol, my group members were all talking about breast and bras... i don't even know to say, so i jus continue using my labtop ^^ . they even insisted that my face was red. what a nice group discussion. lol, but at least its better den a group that insist on me being serious at work =X

hurhur, battlefield 2 is fun. kept dying though, haha. its really funny to see weian play games, damn funny. actually i didn't see whats so exactly fun about this game, until i played with weian and dino. and became commander. ^^ i am borned a leader i guess =X ahahaahah

yay, school finally started... and i skipped the first lesson of thsi term. haha, guess i jus cant change my ways ^^

hmm, had quite an enjoyable week. On friday, we went to have thai spice before going for the band concert. hurhur, he food is nice as usual, but i think we ordered too lil. nvm, wait i strike 4d, i treat everyone to thai spice ^^ then the band concert ok la, not bad... so far, i have been to band concert ever since it started lo. so it will take a lot to surprise me. hurhur. and the best thing of the night is we had stingray and satay at lps. oh yea baby, thats life ~ too bad von din eat -.- and so, mathew, sd , memo and basil came my hse for mahjong. hrhur, i win hor. we played from 1-2 am until 4-5 am. see, no weekian = much faster. lol

den on saturday, i finally went to ktv for the first time, party world at orchard. i actually like it. lol. den sing until 130 am, went to play lan from 2-3, den met memo's fren. sit at mac, eat and talk until 5 am den go home.
den slept at ard 7.. in the end, my father woke me at 11... jus to go and pray... guan yin's bdae ma. happi bdae guan yin ^^

den on sunday, went to cut my hair, now much shorter le(and cooler). and den went to play lan again wif qn, memo, mathew. had quite a few funny moments la. sometimes its such simple stuffs that makes life worth it, a lil gathering and doing stupid things tog.

den finally, today !! skipped first lesson and 30 mins late for second tutorial. in the end, i go in and dream... until 3 den had lunch. and so we went to cp, ly had to get some passport foto for his work ma. since i am already there, i oso shun bian go 77 str and got my ear hole ^^ lets hope theres no infection. hurhur.

hmm, read a couple of funny blogs .one was abt being happy, one was complaining abt people saying her quiet and the other was abt why she rejected a guy who asked her out. really is lol.

I guess today's paper was real bad. everything that i wrote was wrong. hahaha, i even made up my own theories. owhhh, i am so dead. Guess i really needa put a lil more effort in marketing. anyways, tmr will be the last paper le, lets hope it will be easy. i dun even noe wad will i be test on... e-commerce... like wad can be asked abt it?

oh ya, kinda ordered ram from dell.... blood suckers... A 512 ram would usually cost ard $90 in simlim. Guess how much i have to pay when i buy from dell? 185.85!! ITS MORE DEN 2 FOLD LO !~ haiz, no choice, i needa get from dell cuz their ram is a lil different from normal ones. damn, i shldn't have got a dell desktop im the first place.

bought harry potter and the half blood prince on tuesday,completed the whole book on wednesday^^

ahhh, life sucks

i think i can finally understand why and how someone can go bonkers. dun really noe how to explain though. its like when u think too much, not too much things but too much of one thing. well, with so much feelings kept inside me, lets hope that i dun become a psychopath one day =X

ahhh fuck my dreams. gimme something sweet pls. reality is already bad enough, cant u make me feel better while im aslp...

and so my first common test paper is over. Glad that i din study for it, its really simple. hurhur. then after that go home to wait for my driving lesson, zzz, my driving still cmi. go to chinablack yesterday night too, i prefer that place to rush la, but i dun think i will be going to club soon( or anymore). dun like em anyways. and so we left earlier, had mac, and went to wk's house for mahjong. played until 8-9 am ba. hurhur, i am now a pro in mahjong, wahahahaha

I jus hate it when people whines abt everything. it jus spoils the mood. and why cant people jus think, its not like they dun have a farking brain. zzzz and the most irritatting is, dun talk big if u dun haf wad it takes, its farking bullshit.

suddenly... jus suddenly.. i feel so hopeless, so cold, so lonely, so lost, so stupid. i seek so desperately, yet i dun noe wad i seek. i wan answers, yet i find more questions. I need help, but i feel more troubled.

so i started thinking, who can help me find the answers. who can really help me. perhaps theres is one, but he is jus too stupid. and so, i feel so helpless. this kinda feelnig... its like.. u feel a bit cold, u feel that ur chest is heavy, u feel frustrated, u want to do something but u got nothing to do. any minor thing can piss u off.

No, this is not me exaggerating, this is exactly how i feel now. breathe in breathe out? useless, this is not anger, neither do i feel very depressed. perhaps i have too much energy. perhaps everything just doesn't go my way. when did i become this way?

ahhh, i haven visit my blog for soooo long. lol. lets see wad i have to update... hmmm.... okies, firstly, we lost the wcg. this i got nothing to say... we needa improve.

next, corina's hand got into my mouth.... eeeeyuuu.

i think i gonna order more of pizza hut. its quite cheap now wif the offers. hurhur. i kinda sick of eating those same stuffs everyday.. WHY CANT MY FAMILY COOK SOMETHING NEW !

den lastly, yest i finally get to eat thai spice's food again :D:D:D . No, its not that i am rich, its jus that i have to go back there and work. Take over shi xiong for a day.... den after dat we went rush once again.... today quite a few more ppl la, somemore got mathew ^^

i think i shld be going to qingnan's hse to bake cookies today ba. long time no eat le, abit gian ^^

haiz, actually theres more to wad i do la, but i lazy elaborate. hurhur. come to think of it, my life is quite nice ^^ but still not perfect. lacking one last thing.

ahhh... shit, its sunday again. Lol. sch's starting tmr ~~~

Went to ran abit.. wanted to try if my leg is 'workable' after the injury, seems like i still need some time...zzz
and so we went memo's bdae chalet... haha, its quite fun la, cuz all of us youngsters. ahaha, drunkards here and there. went to the beach and walk a bit oso, its been quite some time since i watch the sea at night. many many stars also ^^ if only...
den we played dai dee after going back chalet, lol, xiuxiu super fierce=X

sometimes, its those lil things that makes ur day good or bad. and sometimes, we people jus tink too much.
why cant life jus be perfect

hurhur, finally the end of the week is here. tmr's tutorial is onli 2 hours ^^ a lot of movies oso coming up le, but who can i watch wif.... weian will watch wif corina, memo will watch wif fiona, sd will watch wif his frens on super strange hours, ben got lotsa activities, hanyi is always busy, cant expect me to lang man wif wk ma. aiya, nvm, i can always wait for vcds^^ hurhur

today's presentation quite simple la. actually, we dun haf to wear formal lo.... we were the onli group to do that. anyways, that marks the of one of my modules. yay ^^

super headache now, keep thinking of tactics. ArGhHhhhH

Benny 22yo! 13/4/86