Hmm, i wanted to blog yest, but forgot. wahahha. now at sch using weian's labtop. Chey, the review and test is next and next next week, oday revision only... downa do oso can de. haha, thanks to redsunns, i got WOW le and 10 day guest pass ^^ another new game to try. haiz, but i tink i gonna be busy later, test at 5 pm. den father wan me format my labtop, i tink got something wrong le.

Yest went for hair cut wif memo and weian. lol, memo now look like a rambutan. den after that go home slp den night time suppose to have bball. In the end, only me memo and weekian went. !@#$%^&*( oh ya oh ya, yest i went on a eating spree, dunno why.For lunch, ate $3 wanton mee and $2 chicky rice. Dinner ate some rice at home le, but after bball still spent $10 at mac. its double wad i normally eat a day lo.

Goodluck to all those taking O's results today too. May u all get better results den me.

Your Brain Usage Profile:
Auditory : 60%Visual : 40%Left : 35%Right : 64%

Benny, you show a slight right-hemisphere dominance with a moderate preference for auditory processing, an unusual and somewhat paradoxical combination of characteristics.
You are drawn to a random and sometimes nonchalant synthesis of material. You learn as it seems important to a specific situation, and might even develop a resentment of others who attempt to direct your learning down a specific channel.
Your right-hemispheric dominance provides a structure that is only loosely organized and one which processes entire swatches of reality, overlooking details. You are emotional in your reactions and perceptual more than logical in your approach, although you can impose structure and a language base when necessary.
Your auditory preference, on the other hand, implies that you process information sequentially and unidimensionally. This combination of right-brain and auditory modes creates conflict, as you want to process data more rapidly than your natural processes allow.
Your tendency to be creative and free-flowing is accompanied by sufficient ability to organize and be logical, allowing you a reasonable degree of success in a number of different endeavors. You take in information methodically and systematically which can then be synthesized rapidly. In this manner, you manage to function consistently well, although certainly less efficiently than you desire.
You prefer the abstract and are a theoretician at heart while retaining the ability to be practical. You find the symbolism in a great deal of what you encounter and are something of a "mystic."
With regards to your lifestyle, you have the mentality which would be good as a philosopher, writer, journalist, or instructor, or possibly as a systems designer or social worker. Perhaps most important is your ability to "listen to your inner voice" as a mode of skipping over unnecessary steps to achieve your goals.

Oh ya, today's moon very nice. Big round and orange.

Hmm, today blogspot super laggy... nvm

HAPPY BDAE LINGWEI ~~~ hurhur. hurhur, 16 le. Hope u wun look 60 that soon =X

Eh, okies, its the end of the story le, should i be glad? haha. Yest she confess to me and i ... har, eh and ar for a long time. haha. In the end told her that i am waiting for someone and keep saying sorry. felt really guilty, she muz have been really hurted. Somehow i understand ba, cuz i got the same experience. Hope i wun get retribution for being such an asshole.

Then today suppose to go inline skating. Waited for 3 hours for it to start lo. In the end, wear skates for 5 min have to go home le, cuz rainning. Den our president somehow quitted sch le, so dunno still got tat cca or not.

Hmm, i tink my msn nick gave her a shock ba. I dunno how to tell her, afraid that i might hurt her. dun like the way i am handling this.... haiz. i m really sry, but i really cant find feel anything towards her. Somemore, while chating in msn, i sometimes really dun understand wad shes trying to say. Now i aga aga can understand more wad von felt ba. total miscommunication.

Maybe i can try find someone to act as my gf (any volunteers?). Someone tell me how. pls.

Happy bdae dee ^_^ 17 le , old le. But still cannot watch M18 =X wahahahaha
Oh ya, anyways thanks tai yang uncle for ur treat. so i owe u a divine rapier hor.

feel so tired.

Yea, its time for those big and impt projects again. Luckily this terms seems much easier. Perhaps its cuz i am used to it le ba. Played wif my long forgotten tarots just now, quite positive ans i suppose. Bless me...

For the good news. I passed my basic theory le*cheers* and my common test de results quite ok. lol, but den i got lotsa bad news yest night. One is abt work, another is abt family. Hope their problems will come to an end soon. Need help just find me ^_^

Just now lw, wk , corina and wa came my hse. Sry my hse got nothing for u all to do except slping. haha. ben lai suppose to go for movie or pei wk go china town buy dice, but den the bca project worries me la. now i cannot slp sia. After tmr and i will be much more relax. hurhur. gonna go register for final theory tmr and go gym wif cw. wahahah. No choice, whole body going soft.

Oh ya, i realised i have changed. I dun really crave for slp now. . . instead now i jus like to laze ard. Got a lil more confident. but den realise i am getting more and more insensitive to ppl. . . perhaps i am thinking too much. lw asked me how she changed. I finally thought of the word, its become more matured le ba. No i am not suaning (aunty) u. =X Come to tink of it, i am glad. Even though everyone changed, everyone i cared for is still doing fine.

imlonelyimtroubledifeelemptyimmissingherimweakimscareifeeluselessbutimuzbestrong

lol, sry, forgot to blog for new year. Hurhur, first day visit relatives den nite time watch movie wif lw weian and corina, second day went memo hse and slack, third day go sch and den masti hse in the nite. WAhaha, went to play pool wif sx and qc for the first time. i am god !! WAHAHAH

Okays, today is valentine's day, gonna spend it alone again. haha, she says that she is busy... lai ar, any lonely souls out there? can find me, i shld be free the whole day ba^_^ jus went to her hse to give her flowers, she seems to like it.. haha, suan le la, let fate decide ba.

LOL, now for joke of the day. We were on the bus to np and the 3 of us ( me, memo and weian) din have any good slp. i jus cant slp though, kept tinking .... memo best, sit alone, slp comfortably. WAHAHA, den weian too tired, he jus fell aslp on the shoulders of a stranger. look so farnie.

Somehow, i just knew i got great taste!! WAHAHAHA. The pair of shoes that i wanted is like totally sold out. I went queensway, heeren, a ulu shop at merdien hotel and cp de converse... all dun have ~~~ okies, i am looking at the bright side of life. Really wanted it lo, but oh well. Heaven hates me, always dun gime wad i wan.

Went to play pool wif cw today, won him by 5:4 rounds, wahahhaa. Lemme ask u all a qns, would u all prefer me to be spastic(idiot) or be cool(matured?), hurhur, pls say in the tag box =X hehe, anyways, after that went to cp to find corina and weian(sry for being a dumb lightbulb) . kinda saw a ger la, den told em.... si ren corina go take her number for me.

Another good news is, i tmr not suppose to have lessons, this means that i can pon tuesday one more time !!! haha, no la, i am a good and responsible student. ^_^ oh ya, really felt happy for 3 frens, weian, corina and qc. hurhur. but den sad for me, gotta treat weian.. tat fag, make most noise one oso him, fastest one oso him... __

okies, i forgot wad i wanna blog about..... lets see, i went out today, walked ard queensway, fareast and heeren and bought nothing. LOL. Anyways, the restaurant which i worked in before( thai spice garden) invited us back for dinner(supper) today. I dunno why lingwei they all not informed la, but suppose to be for ex-workers. Hurhur, great food with angbao. I just dunno why, i just drink a bit and my whole face turns tomato ^_^ But so far haven drunk before.

Oh ya oh ya, tried my first cigarette today... at least i din got choked(maybe i am a talented smoker). Anyways, i still dun understand how ppl can be addicted, its like nothing at all -.-. The happiest thing today is that i discovered... THERE IS NO LESSONS TMR !!! WAHAHAHA. E-learning rules.

Lol, new year coming le, wish everyone a happy new year. Actually was looking more forward to vdae. at least its a lil hope.^_^ might be disappointed though. But oh well, life is full of ups and downs. so just rmb the ups when u are down. lol, sry, crapping again.

P.s Ba kua owns, totally

Just now went to play bball. These few days the court a lot of soccer players, why cant they just find a field and play, always disturb us. Anyways, its was ard 9++ when 2 police came. Hey, wads wrong wif playing basketball at that time, lights is not even out yet, somemore still give us lj attd. lol, den i shoot em back, say got someone playing music so loud even ground lvl can hear, why not go hunt that person.Oh well, shld be a blessing in disguise ba, in the end, only basketball is allowed to be played ^_^

Tmr will be the last day of test le. Should i be happy? i dunno. . But at least its one less thing to worry abt la. Cant sleep well at all these few days. WOWOW, surprised to hear this kinda words from me? yest lie on bed at ard 4 am, toss and turn until 6 den fell aslp. Dunno why my mind super active. Kept tinking of her too. FUCK YOU BENNY, STOP THINKING SO MUCH. =)

Im weak. Im afraid to know the ending. soon i tink.

How i hope i can be a player instead of a lover. or am i too conservative =X or was it naive? Haha, seriously feel i needa grow up more.. mentally ^_^

Endless road. Wan this song ? =)

The truth is tearing up my heart
I can't recognize this place
The endless road without a stop sign
Can't even find a stranger this time
Why am i still holding back my tears
In this loneliness there's nothing to fear
Every chord still seems a wonderHow we could be together
Every time i ask if this would be the last
Why am i still talking to myself
Hoping you will have the keys to my cell
Every song might calm the weather but it just draws me deeper
How do i get out of this I think i never will
A crystal forming in the eye
Maybe this would be the last
The winding pathdown my face
Till i begin to taste the bitterness inside

Benny 22yo! 13/4/86