Hmm , just came back from town . Went to play pool wif sd and cx . haha , although lose all de way , its not becuz i lousy lo , its cuz i suay =X well , tink i noe how to play a lil le la , haha. I WILL IMPROVE !!! felt quite strange now , seems like i am getting a lil depression? haha ," impossible !!" some might say . Well , i dunno , the feeling of lost , confused and totally no confidence is coming back slowly .  maybe i am truthly in love again? felt like telling her my feelings but my serious lack of confidence is making me unable to make any advancements . Dammit , i hate this , i hate myself.

Ha , last sunday was shixiong and qicheng's bdae . Notin new too , went to eat pizza hut , proudly sponsered by me and chuanwei ^_^ Den after that went to the movies. Watched king arthur . Well , it wasn't as nice as i thought .

Wahhaha , today de oral com tutorial , i dunno wad to say for my table topic qns !! i kept er , erm , ar for the whole 2 min . lol .hope i can  do better next time .  i just dunno how to talk under stress . was still speaking fine when i was wif my frens .

Omg , i am having a headache now.... perhaps due to the serious lack of sleep . gotta slp early tonite , tmr is gonna be a long day wif sch followed by the band concert . Hope i dun get any injuries from tmr's fitness and conditioning ~~~

Heyo , its been months since i update my blog . i dun tink any one would noe abt me blogging again . well , i felt i needed something or someone to talk to . Since i haven found my soulmate yet , blogging seems to be the best solution .
 
During the past few months , i guess i did changed a lil . haha , forget those old posts , i had already given up on basketball . I am now studying in ngee ann poly , quite a great place , except the fact that travelling alone would take approximately 3 hours per day. My class is wonderful . well , thats wad i felt abt em . For some reason , they are now calling me daddy . haha. The lessons are still quite easy to understand and lets hope it stays this way . As for my cca , i still haven decided on wad i want . there are just too many choices . Maybe i will just do wad i do best , follow my frens , haha
 
Arh , i had a hair cut this week and it was HORRIBLE !!! But i guess i gotta live wif it for quite some time . i will never go back to that salon again . dammit. other than that , notin BIG had happened to me , just the same old life without any climax . still trying my best on the ger i like .still slpy , still crappy and still fat . The onli thing that is keeping me from having those negative thoughts are my aching legs and sprained ankles . Food is top priority now ^_^
 
Well , i gtg eat my supper , haha . Think i will be blogging quite often again .

Benny 22yo! 13/4/86