yUpx , 1 30 am le but haven slp yet , tmr still got sch..... Haiz , many ppl wif probs.... someone cried today , i tried giving solutions wif reasons for each one . He wans to hold on, but the best way is to let go . i can onli hope he realise this. second fren i tried helping was too hum to approach the girl... not onli did he not take the initiative , he even avoid the girl . And when he miss him chance to someone , he onli complaints and feel sad...... -_-" sound like me ya =p

hAiz , nose bleed again . whole body pain , heart oso pain . No cure , onli pleasure is slping...

i am begining to like solitude , the joy of being alone ...... i locked my door and silence my Hp .when my family kept knocking on the door when my frens called...i continue slping , dun feel like caring abt them...dUh , wad the use of posting aniway... i dun tell ppl where is my blog nor do many ppl really care abt me....perhaps this will be my last entry. i tt spilling thing out would be better , but it let me think of those sad things instead , perhaps keeping pain inside me would be better ...

If someone else love u more than i do , is more truthful to u den i do.... and u do pick him.. i will force myself to give up , cuz u will be happier. I just hope u will make the right choice , and not be cheated.

Got my O level eng oral exams today... haiz , i am one of the fastest , but i felt that it is my best attempt so far.... hope i can get good results.... ^_^ i tried helping ppl solve problems today , so feel abit happy :)

something just struck me..... i am not good at anithing , can't do this , can't do that.....when ppl ask me questions , i give stupid answer . when ppl ask me for my opinions , i give lousy ones...... neither am i good at toking , all i say are lame craps.....my results sux , my physical sux...

Ppl says everyone is born for a use... wad is my use den?? i can't figure out. getting older and older.. yet i dunno wad i wan to do... have a feeling that i am useless . I can't help myself , i can't help anione . wad am i for?

tOday played against 4E4.... won ... 43 : 35. But i am not happy wif my performance.. haiz , suan le , win can liao :) These days keep having Nose bleed , cannot eat choc liao . Liu bi xue nvm , hand injured somemore.. now bball oso cannot play =( Xi wan faster recover

Oceans apart
Day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice
On the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
I see you next to never
How can we stay forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

Got back O level chinese results today .... hehe , i thought i got a C5 but it turns out to be a B3 , LUCKY ^_^ Well...i told myself dat if i got B3 and above den i wun retake liao , frenz agreed , saying B3 can liao... But when we got back the results today , those hoping for B3 were sad because they got B3 and wanna retake to get A2... ThUs is the nature of human , never contented.....Should i retake??? hAiZ

today seems to be a mini gathering , went out wif many ppl. We went playing basketball in rain and den went to niner to play a while of lan gaming lor... quite fun la :) hehe , a chance to relax after getting the results back.

LOLx , mY fren banged his head on the lift and caused it to jam !! I lUff until peng.... haha
Been slping these few days , oso dunno why so tired.National day whole day slp at home =X
Also start to eat a lot liao , gonna get real fat soon :(

Exams oso ard the corner.... muz study liao , Eng O's oral just next week...hAiz Might be getting our O's chi result tmr , die liao la. have a feeling i will get poor results =~ Strange thing is i dun seems to be very stress , i wonder why ?? hehe

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY !!! MuAhahaha , ate big breakfast today =X got free sundae :) Suppose to go out... but i dun feel like watching movie so i ask them to go themselves... who noes , they scold me for being unsteady -_-" Perhaps i have been too "ON" in the past liao....

Haha , my fren just SMSed me from kukup , keep kpkb , say got a girl smaller than him rider motor bike... he oso stupid la , got a girl he like for 3-4 years called him and ask if he had fallen for her before... he replied dunno, the girl hanged up immediately . LOLX

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I have no options left again

Haiz , just started doing blog... dun noe a single thing...hehe , aiya , aniway make oso for fun onli.
Sian Sian, another boring weekend . Onli diff is this week sadder than usual. I dunno wad to do le , now just letting time pass meaninglessly. Notin makes me happy , notin makes me angry , notin excites me , notin motivates me , just feel like slping and hiding all day.Absolute no life......
Tired after wearing a smile whole day.... dun wanna make ppl depress wif me =X

Benny 22yo! 13/4/86