Ok, another new experience in life that i would like to share. Nope, when i mean i like to share doesn't mean i like this kinda experience. You would understand why.

As you grow older, you start to meet all kinds of people. Recently, my life is filled with people who i group as "People who just don't get it". What kinda people are they? Nope, they are not your average joe. They are not friends who doesn't get your jokes or your conversation (those who always reply "huh"). They are people who, simply put, just don't get it.

Maybe a few examples will let you know better who am i talking about.

When you tell them shut up, they will think that you are joking with them and continue to laugh himself. You need to tell them to shut the fuck up with the tone emphasizing on the fuck word before they will keep quiet for 1 min.

They are the people who keeps bugging you. They are the people who you can't be bothered with. When the very sight/scent/thought of them sends a body reaction similiar to seeing a pest. Why? Because somehow amazingly, whenever you want some peace, they are always the same people who take it away from you.

And the part that makes it worse. There's no use hinting that you're ignoring the person, there's no point hinting that maybe he/she should stop. No. You need to prove a point, you need something extreme.

So please i beg of you. If someone is doing this to you. Go back and reflect a bit. Do this world and me a favour. Please

How true. Lol

090509 nice date to rmb =)

After seeing someone's reaction and post regarding thai disco, i think to myself. Do men cheat because of lust, or is it because they rather do others wrong than wait for others to do wrong to them.

Perhaps a little bit of both. Love is so rare and fragile nowadays. The one who claimed to love you can just fuck anybody on the street. Whatever you think is special between you two can actually be done with anybody else.

Of course, I believe not everyone is like that. When I feel that I can love someone, can trust someone, I wanna treasure them. But trust is a very special thing. When you lose it, you'll never get it back. No matter how hard you try. What's done, cannot be undone.

It's official, I'm 23 =/

I know many people take birthdays as a very special date for them. Well, it is! It's the only official day of every year that belongs specially to you. But to me, it's just not as important. So pardon me if i didn't wish you happy birthday. Sometimes i do remember! but it only came across my mind the day before your birthday and the day after, just not on your exact date =)

So instead of asking for presents (i never received anything decent before anyways), I would write a tribute for people who meant something to me. I'll try to make it brief cause got a lot ah.

For my family - I don't speak to them a lot, neither do I know the exact details of their personal life (hell! i realised i don't know any of my sibling's friend!) But I love them. It isn't easy maintaining a family and I really respect how my parents did so. They had me when they were like 24-25? I'm 23 and I can barely see myself getting married.

XMS Group! The usual people la. Tho we each have our own very major flaws. (Ben ego, ly troublesomeness, cx wierdness/attpness, wa buayonness, sd stubborness, qn female>maleness, me is laziness?) We know that people here are people we can always rely on. Well, we used to be closer. But as we grow, i guess we have our different group of friends. The monthly gathering is good! In case you wonder why i left some out above, it's because i can't think of major flaws for them! It's a good thing. The rest includes huiyi, mathew, weekian, lingwei and laoda. These are the people i believe will be with me for the rest of this life. (To some rare cases like esmond, xinfu, joanne/a, hanyi, I still rmb you guys, but you all mia for too long/much. I really do meant that sentenced i bolded and I gotta admit i can't feel that when i think about you guys. Sorry >.<)

Now for 3n ppl
Masti - thank you for teaching me so much! hahah
Ifrit - Last time always see you. Now always mia alr.
Zhong ping - Funny fella.
Jiaxian - Also very long no see already.
Lee - You're an asshole.
GGM - You're the pain in the ass.
Joseph - Don't know a lot about you. But thanks for driving me!

P.sch buncha ppl. Shixiong, chuanwei, qicheng. Tho we don't contact as much and asking you all out seems to be a chore. I'm surprised that we still know wad's happening within each other's life. We're open about everything and it's a place where we can be back to who we really are. Like a phrase i heard somewhere before. If the xms group is my home. This is my hometown.

Janicia - You mia so long and yet you're the first one to sms me happy birthday. Gum Xia! Haha come out with us more la. And ya, i miss your dad too.

Yvonne - Really long time no see alr! Yes i know i know, i still owe you something tho i duno wad. Got time go eat BCM lo, i treat you. Add mee add pork add soup. Catch up with you soon!

And for the special one,
Shiyi - I love you =)

Hmm, went for cruise at starvirgo the past 2 days ! Well, it was my first time going for cruise and uh, i doubt i will be going back soon.

It's not that it wasn't fun, it's just that there isn't much to do there and to be honest, the food sucks to the core (except for the jap food which cost 89 bucks for 2 person). I am so damn glad we got the dining voucher. haha

Second day was a pretty sad one as we lost the camera. One thing really commendable. The service on the cruise is nothing you'll find in Singapore. If I were to give a 9/10 for it, the best ever service i received in Singapore is a mere 6.5/10. How to make wad integrated resort?! And the only Singaporeanic thing I heard from a Singaporean is going to write some complain letter to duno where cuz taxis on-call are stoping at taxi stop, claiming that it's blocking other people who didn't book a taxi. Hello! They paid for the service, and it's only a minimal delay. If you dont wanna pay a few bucks to cut the queue, then stfu.

Overall it was a ok ok experience la. Only good thing about the trip was my companion =)

My birthday is coming up and there's a few ideas on how to celebrate. Some said BBQ, some said chalet. I suggested overseas but apparantly it was abandoned due to financial and other constraints.

But what I wanted was really simple. I don't even plan to celebrate. To me, birthday is nothing more than a day for you to indulge in whatever you like and. . . yea, what I really wanted was just to have a quiet birthday. Maybe a meal with some close friends, nothing too extravagant.

So many things I cannot say. So many thoughts I dare not write down. Always felt constantly hanging. I really have no idea. And with each passing moment, the feeling of the prediction seems to be coming true. and I fear for that. . . I really do.

Just went for a tcs with sx, qc and cw. Felt pretty wierd after. It seems like everyone had progressed while I've been staying stagnent. Everyone has a dream, but where is mine! Well, actually I had one, but i didnt thought about the techinical knowledge needed when I was young and I didn't like the technical knowledge needed when I was older.

p.s. I am missing you.

2,309,472 - I round down for you also 2,000,000

Lets say you live till 100! 100 - 20 = 80

80 years X 365 days = 29200 Days.

2,000,000 / 29,200 = roughly 68 bowls per day! You can finish I can treat!

I just realised, I have not eaten BCM for such a longgggg time. I have not played basketball for such a longgggg time, and I have not skate in ecp for such a longggggg time.

Anyways, theres an open house for SIM on the 14th of March, interested parties please lemme know! We can go together!

What's worst than a sudden disappearance is when things so dear to you fades into oblivion without you even noticing. And when you notice, you wonder why. Sweet memories makes you want it back. But it will never come back.

Why are women so troublesome? Not that I am a sexist or what. But even my mum is doing things that will drive me crazy. It goes like this.

Thursday Night

Mum: Ben ah! Tmr you send me to work la. Then you can use the car for the day. I don't need the car.

Me: Ok lo. Shouldn't be a prob

Mum: Then Dante 4pm dismiss from sch, you can go pick him also.

Me: Orh ok.

Friday Morning
Knowing that I need to send my mum to work. I slept at 3am and woke up at roughly 8 plus 9 cause she told me she needs to leave at 9 plus. Who knows, this was what happened when I went to the toilet at 9.

Mum: Ben ah, you didn't sleep ah?

Me: Got ah

*Me goes toilet"

Mum: Ben ah, I think nvm la. I can take mrt to work.

Me: Huh, I drive you la.

Mum: Dowan la, you didn't sleep, later too tired to drive.

Me: I got sleep ah.

Mum: Nvm la I can take mrt.

Me: Aiya then you drive there la, I also don't need a car for the whole day.

Mum: Huh, nvm la I take mrt also can.

By now, I was already pretty frustrated.

Me: Aiya, up to you la.

After saying this, I went to my room and continue using my com.

Then after a very short while, she ask me again.

Mum: You wan send me to work ah?

Me: Ya can ah.

And when she saw me using the com, she had to ask like 2-3 times if I am done and I had to reply her 3-4 times " Yes I am done, can go anytime."

And I have to emphasize, this is a very basic summary of the conversation. To be more exact, imagine her repeating all the questions another 2-3 times, and I literally mean, really do mean, seriously mean another 2-3 times for every single question. . . get my bold? Urgh!

Mahjong Mahjong and more Mahjong! So much so the moment I closed my eyes, I can see myself playing with 3 imaginery guest. Can't even sleep la! Most jialat is still because I lost like every single day. Hahaha

March! April! May! June! July! ORD! I can see the light alr!

Time. It never fails to amaze me.

Cna yuo raed tihs?Olny 55% of plepoe can.

I cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are,the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm.

Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt! fi yuo cna raed tihs, palce it in yuor porfiel.

Wahaha, i am amazed at myself. After a hot bath and some more thinking, i think im kinda enlightened! It's all just a state of mind.

Event + Action = Outcome. I get to control half of it !

I never believed in this kinda things. But sometimes it's just so accurate that it affects you. Would it have been better if i didn't know anything at all? Maybe. On my personal point of view, i would have say no. At least that made me aware of a subconcious problem.

I don't believe in cards. I believe in body language and myself. Maybe i misinterpret something. Even if i did, it's nothing serious as i don't feel any outburst of emotions. What haunts me is the lingering uneasiness that i have been feeling constantly since god knows when. It makes me realise that. . . nevermind. Perhaps, it's about me being paranoid, i hope.

Oh nooooo~ CNY over le. Actually i already spent finish my ang bao money even before it was over ... GG

Yea baby, this is the month of the year! What is ippt ?! Gonna get a pay rise soon! muahahaha. Camp life so boring, it's totally unbearable! Maybe it's due to the chain hols that's causing these weekday blues.

Due to some tards, we have to all confine in camp on Thursday! Actually i find it kinda unfair as majority of us did our job. But no complains, i don't find it a punishment. It's more like a small privilege taken away temporarily. At least there's some consolation. Today's breakfast is IPOH HOR FUN! Quite some time since i talked abt it.

Ipoh Hor Fun you so fun,
Don't have you my life no fun.
Add vinegar,
Add for free.
Add other things,
Pay money!

I won't say anything anymore. I'm in no position to decide what's good for you.

I am supposed to be happy. Well i am happy! But theres an uneasyness that I'm feeling constantly. Can't exactly explain it. Totally hate this feeling.

Another 5 more months before perm liberation. Or is it just another term in a new prison.

YO! Ok, this first post of the year came pretty late. I was just too busy with life baby~ And i even sorta quit wow. Haven't log in since like a week or 2 ago.

Another interesting event in my life once again! On Monday, I reached home and opened my iexplorer. My homepage is always msn.com and there's always some highlights of the day for people to read up on. On that particular day, there is a banner showing tarot readings and so i went ahead and try. It's free so why not?! (Read my previous post on free stuff)

It goes like this. Card 1 to 7, one for each day of the week. After clicking them, it'll explain the meanings to you. In summary, every single day from Monday to Sunday is great/perfect/wonderful/smooth/beautiful/full of luck, vitality or whatever that is good. Except for Thursday. It says i will face some stupid obstacle and generally be a bad day.

Nuuuuuuuuuuu!.!.!.! THEY WERE WRONG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's friday now and so far the previous days was just not too bad. They were totally wrong for thursday tho. It's not a bad day, it's a &*$^%$*&(^%$*(&%^ day. I took my Ippt on thursday and fucking failed my ippt by 1 fucking second!(minimum amount of $200 gone) After that i went canteen and my beloved ipoh hor fun is sold out! Then they make me work until 1.30 pm when i took half day off! And when i went to YUM CHA for the tea time buffet, they said last order is just 15 minutes away! This is what I call a ball banging sensation.

It's just so damn amazing how the power of tarot cards is so true even online. (Perhaps the reading i took at qingnan house might come true... GG)

Yo! It's been a long time since i updated. If you compared my very old entries, this one came pretty early actually. So no complains.

Wish all of you a Merry Xmas and a Happy New Year. Well, better late than never. Anyways, lets have a summary. This year is pretty kind to me actually. Except for the fact that i still have not tio 4d after buying it for the first time 4 years ago, i guess i couldn't have asked for more. I heard next year is gonna be even better for tiger babies! Hopefully it's true hahahaha.

Over-indulgence is dangerous. Especially during this festive season, so please always be on the alert. Else you would probably did what i did today and face a much more dire consequence. (I escaped unharmed =) )

And quote from Weekian. Just love it.
Good things, never comes cheap.
Cheap things, never comes good.
Free things, always good.

I have no words to describe how i am feeling now. . . Haha perhaps cuz my vocab is just too limited. It's kinda like feeling empty, neutral emotions and yet not exactly numb.

I failed my ippt on Friday which was a major blow to me. I already expected a silver myself when I finished my static stations. But sadly, it just wasn't meant to be.

Then i slept at 8pm on a Saturday night. HAhah how sweet is this.

And so its Sunday now (I slept from 8pm to 11am btw =X). I wonder if there will be anymore surprises for me.

Benny 22yo! 13/4/86